I can barely hold it in anymore

Maybe I’m not worth fighting for anymore

Guess who spent her whole month's salary on stationery again?

Do I need to be that obvious?

I found a stationery store at a small nook in Gurney. YUP, dangerous I KNOWWW.

I did the damage and nope, I have yet to start journaling again, my fountain pen inks are still in Singapore and I'm dying to get one here.

Here are the damages I've done at WRITER.

Who can pass up on shiba inus amirite and .... please please let me know where should I stick this giant ass sticker, it was an impulse and I have no RAGRETS. 

Finding love in what I do helps my anxiety. I recently edited a video and uploaded it to my YouTube channel. I know it's simple video with simple editing but I finally got the urge to do it. You can support me by clicking on the video and subscribe!

So long,

Jamie

 Hi non-existing readers,

I know it is just me who reads, and it will only be me who reads in the future. I need an escape, I need it now, and this is my escape.

As you all know, the world is suffering from the pandemic- COVID-19. I did not expect this to come, nor did anyone. At the end of 2019, my husband was pestering me to go back to Malaysia in the beginning of 2020. I reluctantly agreed. We both tendered our resignation letter in January. However, we can't go back as COVID-19 is getting worse. We worked from home since end of April to end of May. We couldn't wait any longer in June as our contract for house rental ends in May. We flew back to Malaysia on 5th of June. 

It was during quarantine, when I finally made some friends in Singapore, and I couldn't meet them before I fly back to Malaysia due to Circuit Breaker. I need to readjust my life again in Penang. I have no friends to hang out with, I'm a foreigner in my own country. I don't recognise the road, I have no where to go during weekend except to stay home. I feel alone, as if I don't have a life of my own other than sharing it with my husband. 

Life is getting harder, I won't deny COVID-19 has affected me. It has, and I'm not sure I'm liking it or not. I want to grow, I want to be different, I want to be better. I'm afraid of being the same me 5 years ago. I want people to know me as me not as my husband's wife. I want to have my own friends in Penang, my own life I create in Penang. 

I guess you can't break what's already broken.

Till next time,

Jamie

I got the airpods. I wanted a wireless earphone for running, or when I walk to catch the train. So far I'm enjoying them well. I wanted to have a wireless earphone for more than a year and I never bite the bullet. I was seriously considering getting them last year for my birthday but I never did. I guess this year I got what I wanted.

I also did my nails. Boy do I love them!

 

It's like a mermaid pearl like colour. It's holo, when light hits my nails at a different angle, the colour changes from purply pink to green. I'm into painting my nails again. It's therapeutic, and I enjoy different colours on my nails every few weeks.

I also got the adidas continentals. Haven't worn them yet, I kinda digging it. Dressing casual, with a dress.

I visited sephora the other day and I hit town. I got so much stuff!




My skin hates me right now. I'm having a bad breakout at the chin and jaw area, hoping these bad boys will calm them down.


It is my 4th/ 5th month of me consistently exercising. I did not lose weight nor did I gain any. My weight just fluctuates at 49 KG - 51 KG. But it always feels good after my exercise, like for once I did something good for me, I'm making a difference, a progress. I know not many of you read my blog, or watch my YouTube, and I do them anyway, hoping at least you guys gain something from it.

I'm also working hard on my Spotify playlist. I've been enjoying music from Brett Eldredge.

I guess that sums up my November. Here is a non Instagram feed approved photo of me enjoying fast food after watching Frozen 2.

Hello everyone. I have nothing to update for this month. It is as typical as any other day.
It is almost a month since my last post. I am watching The Resident.
Liking it so far. I'm also loving the Boom Chicka Pop popcorn. I enjoy eating them while watching The Resident.

I made new Spotify playlist.
I have a  few playlists

1. Workout Playlist
2. Motivation Playlist
3. KonMari with Me Playlist
4. Wedding Playlist (Volume 1 & Volume 2)
5. Commute with Me Playlist 
6. My Best Playlist

I am loving my new shoes and card holder

life is hard. life is simple but life isn't easy
there are people who win in life, who excel who love everything that's thrown at them. There are people who take down challenges like it's nothing.

Some are independent, some love being alone, some enjoy the quietness.

some got married at 23
some gave birth at 22
some bought a house at 24
some bought a car at 21
some got a promotion at 25
some people grow wiser, grow stronger, grow more independent
some never change. some stayed the same as they were last year
some still gullible
some still inexperienced
some who never board the plane alone
some who don't take property classes or investment classes
some don't volunteer
some who can't do simple math
some who is just couch potato

Hi everyone!

I'm trying to make it a point to write on my blog every single week. I want to be consistent in posting here more often because I enjoy writing and telling you strangers (or maybe not) about my thoughts and share what's happening in my life, not that you care but yeah.

How is it almost end of September already? Don't you find that time just fly by? I digress as always.
Lately I'm enjoying this new TV series I recently discover which is House M.D.. How have I heard of it? I was reading the newspaper (yes, I still read them) that a doctor diagnose a rare disease on a patient because he got the idea from House M.D.. I know, baffling, but if it helps it's not stupid.



It's about how a head of diagnostics department doctor name House solves mysterious illness with the help of his team. What's addicting about this tv series is that House is a doctor who is relies heavily on his pain killer to dull his chronic pain he's experiencing on his leg. He is quite an arrogant person who has no family or friends. He only has his best-friend which is Dr. Wilson who is a total opposite of him. They complement each other very well, and no matter how bad the fight is between them, they ended up finding themselves together, inseparable.

Boom Chicka Pop

have you guys tried them? I am addicted! You can find them at FairPrice for $6.00. They're really really good! It took me about 4 days to finish the whole package!

Love and Bravery Romper

it's not a dress it's a romper. I've refrained myself from buying clothes since February because I've been spending all my coins on planner products. But this romper, I couldn't pass it up. So, I got myself a romper and I enjoying wearing them, it's flowy and it's cute.

MacBook Pro and Magic Mouse


Guys, I bit the bullet and got myself a MacBook Pro and the Magic Mouse. That's the best decision I've ever made for myself. All these while I felt I don't make decisions that's for me, it's always about what others might think, what my husband might think, but no, I bought it for me and I am so proud that I did because I deserve it. I've been using it to edit videos for my YouTube channel and of course to watch House M.D. duhhhhhh

I guess that's it from me, tell me what you think about House M.D. and I guess I'll see you guys next week! You can find me on Instagram in the mean time. Bye!

Hello everyone!

I bought some stuff from Hobonichi. Hobonichi is a store from Japan. They are well known for their planner that uses Tomoe River paper (heaven for fountain pen users)

Tomoe River paper is an extremely thin paper that holds water very well. You can water colour in them and if you use fountain pen, there won't be any feathering like you would experience in a copy paper.

I used hobo weeks this year and I'm continuing it for next year. so I bought the Hobonichi Weeks as my everyday carry (edc). I bought the one with the Tokyo Tower as the cover. If you haven't read my blogpost about my honeymoon, you should check it out and you'll know why I chose the cover.

Then I bought the A6 notebook for journaling because the planner version is too expensive. I can't justify buying hobo weeks and A6.


Finally I got the pencil board. because I wanted to own a print of Dasenka, so the cheapest I could find and that I would use is the A6 pencil board. Pencil board is a smooth surface for you to write on. It prevents bumpy surface from all the writing or stickers that you've stick behind the paper.

I did an unboxing on my YouTube. Hope you'll enjoy them!

How is August just ended? And now we're officially moving into the month of -ber, the last quarter of the year. I swear it felt like April yesterday. If you didn't know I registered my marriage in August last year, I know! It has been a year since I am someone's wife! Blows my mind too. I digress. Today, I would like to share what I enjoyed in the month of August.

1. Siren Season 1 and Season 2
Don't be surprise I can finish both seasons in a month. I just can alright? All I can takeaway from this is that Ryn (the mermaid) has a polygamous relationship with Ben and Maddie. First of all, how? and why? but whatever, I just binge watch and did not give much of a thought

2. The Good Doctor Season 2

Dress: Zara
Shoes: Mango
Bag accessories: Universal Studios Japan : Harry Potter and the Wizarding World
Watch: Samsung (OH EMM GEEE this watch is my most favourite thing in the world and will always be in my favourites every month)

Hey you, yeah you, the one behind the screen. Thank you for setting aside your time to read this. Actually I'm not sure any of you will read this, heck even finish reading this. I enjoy writing on my blog and yet I know not many of you read them, why even try, right? Well because this platform helps me to write what I really felt and somewhat a part of me want this out on the internet hoping people like you to stumble upon and read.


I am Jamie, I'm in my mid 20s. I'm really really an introverted person, you can't find anyone else who's more introverted than I am. I'm always this quiet, shy girl my whole childhood, sometimes it feels like it'll cost me an arm and a leg just to say hi to strangers or meet new people.


Obviously, case in point, I do not have many friends. Is either you don't like me, or I'm not interesting enough or I'm just too shy. I have been underweight all my life. I was this skinny girl who spends her time burying her nose in a book. I am always awkward on social events, on someone's birthday, on a tea party and so on. Yes, I go through puberty but never across my chest, just vertically. I am towering over boys my age at 14. I was this angsty, pimply faced girl and I went through a phase thinking that the world had wronged me, God forbid, owed me. Thank GOD that went by quickly. Growing up, I'm quite a chill person, shy but chill. Nothing roller coaster summer life of that nature, just atypical girl next door.


Here am I in my 20s still had no idea what to do with her life. Life is exhilarating, yes but I still have yet to find my niche. Lately I discovered the world of planning, the world is at my fingertips as some of you may say it, thanks to Google. You may ask, what is so fascinating about planning? Boy do you have a lot to learn. I suggest you to read my previous post to get a glimpse of it. (shameless self promo) Planning to me is like you giving LOL dolls to 4 year old girls or talking about how many horsepower does Aston Martin Valkyrie has to a guy wearing Italian leather shoes. I would trade anything I mean anything for a new squishy velvety squared corner leather cover with 30mm rings Planner. Heck I even have a YouTube channel and Instagram dedicated to share my love for planning.


Am I a nerd? Maybe. But to me, I finally found something that I truly do enjoy with every fibre of my being. OK, that's a tad dramatic, but you get the drift. My point is, no matter how you think the world is against you, or how you're not worthy enough, or how you're not lovable, or that you felt like a failure. Accept all your strength and flaw of every single cell in your body. You don't have to beg everyone to like you or wondering why everyone is so against you, you just have to be the better person than you were yesterday. You just need to trust yourself, be that person no one is for you. Love yourself, stop procrastinating, stop saying you do not deserve all the goods in life.


Start today.