Hello friends,

You know what scares me the most? Every night I used to yearn for your cuddles and you hate giving them to me because of the chest tightness you experience after. Now, you hug me every night thinking I want them, but it made me realise, they no longer give me the sense of security and I no longer yearn for them.

It’s my birthday month.

I can barely hold it in anymore

Maybe I’m not worth fighting for anymore

Guess who spent her whole month's salary on stationery again?

Do I need to be that obvious?

I found a stationery store at a small nook in Gurney. YUP, dangerous I KNOWWW.

I did the damage and nope, I have yet to start journaling again, my fountain pen inks are still in Singapore and I'm dying to get one here.

Here are the damages I've done at WRITER.

Who can pass up on shiba inus amirite and .... please please let me know where should I stick this giant ass sticker, it was an impulse and I have no RAGRETS. 

Finding love in what I do helps my anxiety. I recently edited a video and uploaded it to my YouTube channel. I know it's simple video with simple editing but I finally got the urge to do it. You can support me by clicking on the video and subscribe!

So long,

Jamie

 Hi non-existing readers,

I know it is just me who reads, and it will only be me who reads in the future. I need an escape, I need it now, and this is my escape.

As you all know, the world is suffering from the pandemic- COVID-19. I did not expect this to come, nor did anyone. At the end of 2019, my husband was pestering me to go back to Malaysia in the beginning of 2020. I reluctantly agreed. We both tendered our resignation letter in January. However, we can't go back as COVID-19 is getting worse. We worked from home since end of April to end of May. We couldn't wait any longer in June as our contract for house rental ends in May. We flew back to Malaysia on 5th of June. 

It was during quarantine, when I finally made some friends in Singapore, and I couldn't meet them before I fly back to Malaysia due to Circuit Breaker. I need to readjust my life again in Penang. I have no friends to hang out with, I'm a foreigner in my own country. I don't recognise the road, I have no where to go during weekend except to stay home. I feel alone, as if I don't have a life of my own other than sharing it with my husband. 

Life is getting harder, I won't deny COVID-19 has affected me. It has, and I'm not sure I'm liking it or not. I want to grow, I want to be different, I want to be better. I'm afraid of being the same me 5 years ago. I want people to know me as me not as my husband's wife. I want to have my own friends in Penang, my own life I create in Penang. 

I guess you can't break what's already broken.

Till next time,

Jamie

I got the airpods. I wanted a wireless earphone for running, or when I walk to catch the train. So far I'm enjoying them well. I wanted to have a wireless earphone for more than a year and I never bite the bullet. I was seriously considering getting them last year for my birthday but I never did. I guess this year I got what I wanted.

I also did my nails. Boy do I love them!

 

It's like a mermaid pearl like colour. It's holo, when light hits my nails at a different angle, the colour changes from purply pink to green. I'm into painting my nails again. It's therapeutic, and I enjoy different colours on my nails every few weeks.

I also got the adidas continentals. Haven't worn them yet, I kinda digging it. Dressing casual, with a dress.

I visited sephora the other day and I hit town. I got so much stuff!




My skin hates me right now. I'm having a bad breakout at the chin and jaw area, hoping these bad boys will calm them down.


It is my 4th/ 5th month of me consistently exercising. I did not lose weight nor did I gain any. My weight just fluctuates at 49 KG - 51 KG. But it always feels good after my exercise, like for once I did something good for me, I'm making a difference, a progress. I know not many of you read my blog, or watch my YouTube, and I do them anyway, hoping at least you guys gain something from it.

I'm also working hard on my Spotify playlist. I've been enjoying music from Brett Eldredge.

I guess that sums up my November. Here is a non Instagram feed approved photo of me enjoying fast food after watching Frozen 2.

Hello everyone. I have nothing to update for this month. It is as typical as any other day.
It is almost a month since my last post. I am watching The Resident.
Liking it so far. I'm also loving the Boom Chicka Pop popcorn. I enjoy eating them while watching The Resident.

I made new Spotify playlist.
I have a  few playlists

1. Workout Playlist
2. Motivation Playlist
3. KonMari with Me Playlist
4. Wedding Playlist (Volume 1 & Volume 2)
5. Commute with Me Playlist 
6. My Best Playlist

I am loving my new shoes and card holder

life is hard. life is simple but life isn't easy
there are people who win in life, who excel who love everything that's thrown at them. There are people who take down challenges like it's nothing.

Some are independent, some love being alone, some enjoy the quietness.

some got married at 23
some gave birth at 22
some bought a house at 24
some bought a car at 21
some got a promotion at 25
some people grow wiser, grow stronger, grow more independent
some never change. some stayed the same as they were last year
some still gullible
some still inexperienced
some who never board the plane alone
some who don't take property classes or investment classes
some don't volunteer
some who can't do simple math
some who is just couch potato

Hi everyone!

I'm trying to make it a point to write on my blog every single week. I want to be consistent in posting here more often because I enjoy writing and telling you strangers (or maybe not) about my thoughts and share what's happening in my life, not that you care but yeah.

How is it almost end of September already? Don't you find that time just fly by? I digress as always.
Lately I'm enjoying this new TV series I recently discover which is House M.D.. How have I heard of it? I was reading the newspaper (yes, I still read them) that a doctor diagnose a rare disease on a patient because he got the idea from House M.D.. I know, baffling, but if it helps it's not stupid.



It's about how a head of diagnostics department doctor name House solves mysterious illness with the help of his team. What's addicting about this tv series is that House is a doctor who is relies heavily on his pain killer to dull his chronic pain he's experiencing on his leg. He is quite an arrogant person who has no family or friends. He only has his best-friend which is Dr. Wilson who is a total opposite of him. They complement each other very well, and no matter how bad the fight is between them, they ended up finding themselves together, inseparable.

Boom Chicka Pop

have you guys tried them? I am addicted! You can find them at FairPrice for $6.00. They're really really good! It took me about 4 days to finish the whole package!

Love and Bravery Romper

it's not a dress it's a romper. I've refrained myself from buying clothes since February because I've been spending all my coins on planner products. But this romper, I couldn't pass it up. So, I got myself a romper and I enjoying wearing them, it's flowy and it's cute.

MacBook Pro and Magic Mouse


Guys, I bit the bullet and got myself a MacBook Pro and the Magic Mouse. That's the best decision I've ever made for myself. All these while I felt I don't make decisions that's for me, it's always about what others might think, what my husband might think, but no, I bought it for me and I am so proud that I did because I deserve it. I've been using it to edit videos for my YouTube channel and of course to watch House M.D. duhhhhhh

I guess that's it from me, tell me what you think about House M.D. and I guess I'll see you guys next week! You can find me on Instagram in the mean time. Bye!